lyehuat

time to end this whole thing

2006-07-06T00:30:00.000+08:00

after so many post. 155 and this is the 156 post to be exact.
i think its time to let this blog relax and stop serving me.
i've not been very nice to it.
ranting my heart out.
i really loved this blog.
and i mean it.

i dun have a particular reason to close it.
i just feel like doing it.

for the past year i think,
i've been writing loads.
thanks readers for reading.
i just wanna make this grand to really thank you, my blog.
I LOVE YOU

NO ONE IS SENSITIVE ENUFF

2006-07-05T00:03:00.000+08:00

i was talking to this some person.
who wants to be alone.
as in no friends?
it just shows how hurt he/she is.
something major must have happened.
maybe someone said something that really hurt him/her.

seriously i dun want ~~anyone~~ friends to be alone.
its sad. real sad.
i dun like it when my friends dun feel good.
i'm sure its not only me.
no one wants their friends to feel hurt or sad.
RIGHT?

pple put there please be sensitive to other's feelings.
if i was ever insensitive please do tell me.
i think that this is a big issue you know.
it hurts to hear this kinda stuff.

you know (s)he's your friend when you know you want him/her, not need him/her.

this time its major (i hope)

2006-07-04T01:29:00.000+08:00

well i guess its lye huat's under construction again.
sorry for any inconvenience caused.

evil evil lurking all in me =DD

2006-07-02T02:56:00.000+08:00

well i always believed in
'if you're not happy with me, tell me'
so if you are not happy with me, TELL ME. =D

gerard and gracia's event was nice!
hahas. well at least we did enjoy ourselves.

sometimes i dunno wad you all are thinking.
if its a secret, KEEP IT A SECRET.
dun let pple know you are keeping a secret.
it can really make the person who dunno the secret feel damn bad.
some pple are just damn good at doing it.
sometimes i think i do it too. =x
so wadever. karma's biting on me.

well seriously,
dun see me as some saint or wadever.
coz i can tell you seriousy, i am not!
i'm all evil and always having plans to hurt someone bad.
real bad.

sucking up to me does not work.
leave me after you dun need me is NOT OKAY for me.
and i rarely give 2nd chances.
i only ASK for them.
i only help those who i think deserve it.
and those who deserve it are my FRIENDS.

hahas. i believe this post shot loads straight in the face.
well i'm shooting myself too actually.
so i guess its fair.
=DD hate me if you have to.
i dun care but do tell me you hate me.
coz if i got BS, hahas.
revenge will be twice as painful.
trust me. =DD

told ya i'm evil.
seriously you guys should watch out for me.

thanks

2006-07-01T01:02:00.000+08:00

yeah i talked to some of them already.
and i feel so loved to know so many pple actually cared.
thanks =DD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEARLENE.
you're one of the friends that i must never forget!
how can i ever forget you.
yesterday's celebration was nothing big but haha
hahs. hope you've had fun =DD
you know we love you!!

2006-06-29T02:20:00.000+08:00

its not that i dun wanna update.
but i have been super duper busy lately.

these few days were ..
how should i put it.
overall, BAD.
since its BAD, i dun wanna talk abt it.
=DD

anyway, i'm helping gerard publicize his event.
pple please visit site below for more details.

presenting:
STEREO EFFECT

its a clubbing event in school this saturday,
1 july that is. =DD
please support since my 'best bud' gerard is organising it. =DD

thats abt it.
until the next time =DD

sometimes, you have to fake a smile to let everyone think that you are okay.

zia win

2006-06-18T03:31:00.000+08:00

there is this bakery that really makes me feel so.. i dunno

they make waffle that dun taste best.
but you just feel sooo good eating it.
coz u know that they did their best to make it taste as good as they can.
their thought just make the waffle taste like..
wow!!
hahas. i see them make the waffle, i feel very happy.
i dunno why.

i really like this cake shop.
you know, its just a simple shop.
but its got really happy workers.
they're not locals.
but they're happy working.
one speaks mandrine, the other speaks english.
its kinda surprising how both of them are able to communicate.
they learn each other language.
the friendship they showcase,
the care i see they have for each other.
i think that is wad made me love that shop so much.
i dun see these nowadays.

i still remember the swing at jeremy's house.
i dunno if the rest of you can remember that swing.
but i still remember the promise we made.
yes. i still remember.

we're all grown up and have to take responsibility for wadever we do.
we're no longer kids running around naked in the house.
we're freaking 18, we're labeled young adults.
and we HAVE TO ACT LIKE ONE.

using each other

2006-06-17T01:12:00.000+08:00

i'm not under control.

everyone's using each other.

how many real friends do u have?
how many of them can u trust.
REALLY trust.
i used to have 5 who i'm sure that they are.
but now, i can only confirm one.
its all changed.
wad a sad thing.

there is something you should understand about the way i work.
when you need me but you do not want me, then i must stay.
when you want me but no longer need me, then i have to go.

nanny mcphee

meishan and jing zhu

2006-06-15T02:32:00.000+08:00

i watched this show on U channel,
about how this two disabled pple lived their life.
despite their disabilities,
their family did not gave up on them.
too tired to write abt my views but anyway,
JIA YOU to the both of you.
there're so many pple around you who really love you.
dun give up hope. =DD

now i think the only thing that looks forward to seeing me,
is my boaster.
i can really smell it once i open my door
(not room door but 'main' door)
can you imagine?
its as though its welcoming me back.
i really love you boaster. =DD

noec =((

old self

2006-06-14T04:02:00.000+08:00

You're looking for something you can't find
if you give it up you'll lose your mind
There's always something in your way
But what can you say
You're gonna have a good day

quoted from good day by the click five

sometimes i'd rather be my old self back again.
everything is wrong now.
nothings the same.

friends

2006-06-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

DEFINE friends.

from the dictionary

A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement: friends of the clean air movement.
Friend A member of the Society of Friends; a Quaker.

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/friend

most of the pple i know fall into definition no. 2 and 3.
there are hardly any 1s..

well if that is how you really define a friend.
haha.

i just came back from NRA camp.
ann's talk was really inspiring.
many new friends made.
the food was heavenly.
the dance pract was fun.
the classes by ann were kinda farnie.
the seniors were great =D

hidayah smsed one of those good night messages.
they used to be so common.
but now so rare.
well i guess others dun even care anymore.
neither do i lah but.
it was really sweet of her.

we used to receive so many of those messages a night.
at least few a night.
now. if u can get one a month,
its really good already.
receiving one of these sweet messages once in a while can make you feel so loved.
thanks hidayah. =D

when you're alone.

2006-06-06T03:42:00.000+08:00

some pple choose to be alone.
others hope that they'd never be.
weird ain it.

as for me.
i think i'd prefer to balance both.
i want time to be alone.
and at times, when i'm alone, i hope that there'll be someone out there for me.
i know there are.
but sometimes, i just dun really know how to approach pple.

seriously, this world is weird.
and recently, i've concluded that this is an ugly, corrupted, and evil world.
but its not hopeless.
the only hope left is love.
yeah, LOVE.

ever felt that strong feeling that you wanna protect something that much.
yeah that strong feeling is LOVE.
well. i think love is like wow!
its stronger than any supernatural powers Xmen have.
creates miracle that no one else can.
hmmm.
yeah thats love.

love does not have to be between a guy and a girl.
there are many different kinda love.
i can't explain that but.. there's just many different kinda love. =D

lets all love and make this a better world. =DD

wads taking everyone so long

2006-06-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

title is random.
just had this feeling.
wxx axx mx fxxxxxx.
wxxxx axx txxx wxxx i mxxx nxxxxx txxx.
ix kxxxx tx kxxx txxx nx oxx cxxxx.

ghostly encounter in school.
WOW.

back to mug.
i hate xxx xx xxx

ACMB sucks big time.

2006-06-04T00:30:00.000+08:00

i hate to study.
yeah i guessed no one like it.
this common test made me not able to go sentosa for the balloon festival.
wow.

jearlene wrote in her blog that i'm one of her 'lovely friends'
hahas.
felt so appreciated.
and yes jearl. i love you too!

listening to pirates of carribbean now.
really brings back memories of NSSSB.
think i'll go back one of these days during my 2 weeks break.
hmm. wonder how they are now.

3 'weeds' in the club house.
hope they'll grow with us.
=DD

carn wait for the common test to finish.
woohoo!
hte you testss!!

study period

2006-06-01T23:50:00.001+08:00

yeah this is the study period.
common test's next week.
everyone is mugging.
thats scary. hahas!

some pple are just gifted with a mind
that can memorise damn well.
well sadly i'm not one of them.
my gift? i'm CUTE! =DD

anyway. i hate to study.

a lot of this happened in this short period of time when i din blog.
well. things are not wad they seem.
dun be fooled.

there is no good man on earth.
there's only the evil beings,
or pple whose actions follow moral values.

and doing things that are morally correct doesn't make you a good man.
a good man is someone who have no evil thoughts AT ALL.
well that is wad i feel.
and i dun think that there is such a person.
hmmm..

no such things as good man on earth.
remember pple.

AND let me tell you.
i'm sly, evil and mean.

ihi ihml ihm

2006-05-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

i love kiat.
read his blog.

i love kiap.
talked on the phone for very long.

=DD

study in school

2006-05-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

yes u din read the title wrongly.
i AM studying in school.
SUCKS totally. but common test is like..
NEXT 2 WEEKS??

chaos suggested that we go KL the coming 2 weeks break after common test.
cool eh?
looking forward to it man.
chaos! plan properly alrights!

freaks.
update more when i'm home.
=DD

fucking high flying high

2006-05-21T22:58:00.000+08:00

hahas.
i just heard james blunt's 'you're beautiful' on 987 radio.
the lyrics are changed.
you know there's this part where he sings,
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high
they changed it to flying high.
hahas.. SINGAPORE.

yeah and now i'm stuck at home doing LAB REPORTS.
i hate lab reports.
now i know how cousin hua feels.
SHITTY LAB REPORTS.

went to esplanade with GLs yesterday.
had a real good time FARTING at the 'sky garden' there.
methane gas. hahas!
i wonder how much longer can we stay this way.
i mean. i dun think this is forever.
lets treasure each other. =DD

before i went to join them,
went to MI (toh tuck) for a carnival.
hahas. hidayah brought hus there.
jearl liane hafiz and yong ren went.
met rasyidah and nadia there.
not much change. hahas!
miss the days when we're still in NSS.
BAH..

HE's LEARNING IT FROM HER!!
yes. dad's becoming naggy!
mum must have did something to him.
ZOMG SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!

love my friends hate my life =DD

tiring day

2006-05-20T03:32:00.000+08:00

DAMN.. friday nights are forever busy and tiring.
stressful too.
coz i have to really submit my reports by next week. =DD
or else they'll be 2 weeks late. =P

today went to angel's place again.
this time to celebrate mr neo's birthday.
jearl did all her crappy dance.
which i have to say is kinda entertaining.
and we also played the 'murderer' game.
hahas. damn fun to hang out with them. =DD

BARBEQUE is cancelled.
my fault =(

ok so after so much trouble.
its postponed.
sorry freshies and sgl/agl/lgl s =DD

i'm super tired.
con't some other day.

b4 i forget..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIAPS AND MR NEO POTATOE!!

some f up barbeque plans

2006-05-18T21:21:00.000+08:00

well the planning is f-ed up.
but still it continues.
no more delay okays!!

i just read someone's blog.
kinda feel guilty after reading it.
now i wun do wad i did before.
think i'm gonna tell the rest this too.

hahas. i've decided to run the house.
no one else bothers to do it.
FINE then!
I WILL DO IT.

hmm. i realised that i'm growing up.
my dad's growing old.
mum's growing INCREASINGLY naggy.
which IS a sign that she's older too.
must be a good child.
TREASURE THEM!!

dad's coughing like mad.
hope he's okay.
hmmm..

i've cleaned up my room.
i hope this time the cleanliness stays.. FOREVER.
not like all other times where i clean it,
and it goes back to the messy state after awhile.
hmmm..
dad and mum kinda praised me indirectly.
hahas! they love me.
i love my NEAT ROOM!!

YES GEELLs!!
if you read this, PLEASE
remind your freshies to pay up for the BBQ.
pass it to us latest by tmr 1pm.
WE REALLY NEED YA COOPERATION!!

friends.

2006-05-17T02:10:00.000+08:00

i think i'm gonna be sick.
hahas. i feel so HOT now.
sadly i dun have a thermometer at home.
i have but i'm too lazy to find.
lets hope i get sick tmr.
i WANT an MC =DD

i fear i might lose another friend.

i've already lost a DAMN CLOSE friend for the same reason today.

i've been really bad to this guy lately.
i'm becoming a monster.
hahas. haiz.

erms. i love fm98.7 =DD

i need a hdd mp3.
i'm DESPERATE for it.
any nice dudes out willing to make an innocent CUTE lil boy's dream come true? =DD

ipod video
ipod video
ipod video
ipod video
ipod video

i hope that i din make it too obvious wad mp3 i want?
=DD

bully

2006-05-16T06:10:00.000+08:00

that gay chao is trying to be sweet,
and trying to win my heart.
=DD

i'm a bully since young.
i started bullying pple in my kindergarden years.
its been with me till now.
sorry for those pple who i've bullied.

i read some tagboard message of this certain blog.
and it made me really wonder if i really deserve the place.
hmm. does the right attitude give you all rights to stay?
i think i better start working if i wanan stay.
WADEVER!!

trying to learn to look at the things from the brighter side.
isn't that wad nike has always been trying to teach us?
somehow lost this ability recently.
lets find it back.
LOL. hmmm.
alright, the down and low days are over.
PMS

LIFE IS GOOD =DD

mum i hate you

2006-05-15T02:35:00.000+08:00

you like to complain so much.
you like to find every excuse to scold me.
and when i talk back and you got nothing to rebutt me back,
u will use your status.
FINE THEN..

i shouldn't have stayed at home all day.
i think i have friends who dun celebrate mother's day more deserving of my company.
at least i feel appreciated there.
you may say
shit you lah you. does feeling appreciated means so much to you.
WELL YES. it means a whole lot to me.
it makes me feel that i din go thru all the shit for nothing.
you know how horrible it is to feel that way.

i shouldn't have waited you home for dinner.
i pity my brother.
he waited with me.
and this is wad we 2 get.
hoping you would bring us out for a decent meal like before.
i dun even need a decent meal.
just simple dishes, or even a bowl of soup will do.

okays.. i do feel better.
after yichao telling me how to torment them in future.
lol!
thank yichao man mum.
you really owe this to him.

after all these complains..
i think yeah..
deep inside i still love her.

the handbag is still in the cupboard.
lets see if she's nice on her birthday then.. =DD

mummy, i ~~hate~~ love you..

a poem for you mum which doesn't rhyme

i see you asleep every night.
sleeping so soundly like a child.
but when i see the lines that are on your face.
it shows irony of wad your love for us is like.

after a whole day long of work.
to make sure that we had our bread and wine.
all you get is a cold shoulder from your darling babies.
who used to smile and kiss your cheek.

you may nag and scold me all night.
and i may seem to not even care.
but every thing that you said and brought up,
hurt me so as though its really bleeding inside.

an unfilial son i may be.
i still have love for you which you may not see.
i hope we can show our love like before.
and mother and son we shall always be.

i love you mama..

mother's day

2006-05-14T22:48:00.000+08:00

dearest mum..
i got you a handbag for mother's day.
i wanted to give it to you later but u came in and scolded me.
all the mood's gone now.
its something thats always there.
y issit that it only bothers you now?
y do u have to scold me at this very moment?
u say i'm like super active outside home and when i'm home i'm as 'lively' as wriggly worms.
its YOUR fault in case u din know =DD
now i think the only place the handbag belongs is the rubbish chut.

i actually wanted to..

okay.. i was RUDELY INTERUPTED by that toot again.
continue to nag yeah?
wait till i cannot take it and tell you wad i wrote here.
i'd make sure u cry.

the mum who used to be my mum is now gone.
yeah.. GONE..

no mood to blog anymore..

i dun wanna go home.
all i have left is my room.

wash my brains.

2006-05-13T19:00:00.000+08:00

i slept till like 5 today.
my day suck today.

i realise its getting harder to live life as you grow older.
trying so hard to cope with life.
more and more things happening to you at one time.
expecting you to work with so many things at one time.
we're slowly becoming machines as day goes by.
i think my parents, or should i say any other working adults, have became machines already.
machines work all day. no feelings no life no nothing else but work.
look at them.
they dun see friends as important anymore.

maybe its just my parents but..
my parents only look for friends when they need them.
otherwise, they dun contact them at all.
i really wonder how many friends do my parents have?
i never see them meeting up with their friends for tea or wadever.
sometimes, i feel that i'm no different from them.
i dun contact any of my friends.
so i think it wun be long before i become a full fledge machine like my parents.

i've came to conclusion that becoming mature is like evolution.
when a cutesy-bitsy baby slowly growing up into an ~~machine~~ adult.
you know the baby is maturing.

well i saw something that i'm not suppose to see yesterday.
and i was kinda shocked, sad, guilty all mixed feeling.
well. some things are just not meant to be.

people DO change.

went to liane's place yesterday.
looked through the year book with liane and jearl.
how different we looked.
growing to become machines without even knowing.

mum says i take home as a place where i sleep, get allowance and thats it.
yes i admit that.
but wad else is there to do at home?
you all were never there for me?
why do i have to get home so early?
there wouldn't be anyone for me.
i only feel the sense of belonging when i'm with my friends.
i'm sorry but thats a fact.
at least i can communicate with them.
its not your fault though.
you've got to work for YOURSELF.
stop saying you're working so hard for me.
if i wasn't even born, i'm sure u'll work as hard.
i know u guys love me.
but loving me is not enuff.

pple in school,
you see me being neat and stuffs.
yes i am a neat freak.
but wait till you see my room.
its in a total mess.
y? coz i dun bother.
no one bothers to keep the house clean.
its been like that since young.
i dun feel the sense of belonging.

i did alot of thinking today.
i thought about my life.
i thought about my friends.
seriously, my life is a gonner.
my friends, i dun even know who's true.

i love to sleep.
coz i dun have to face this pathetic life.

i just wanna run away

down..

2006-05-12T01:15:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling so cracky and emo today.

shall not elaborate or pple will think that im facing DEPRESSION.
i just know i'm being loved. =DD

ain got the mood to do this today.

happy birthday RON AND BEN LIM

2006-05-11T01:21:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN LIM AND RON!!
after their birthday its like so much more relaxed.
now to catch up with my school work.
I NEEDA DO ALL MY OVERDUE REPORTS!

i'm UBER proud of myself.
you know that kinda feeling when u do sth for pple and they really liked it.

i just heard this damn sad thing on the radio.
someone called in and told ther deejay,
a listener (her cousin) got involved in a car accident.
a week ago the dee jay was chatting with her on the phone on air.
she wanted this song by 3 doors down. here by me i think.
but the dee jay said he dun do request.
now he dun feel good.. coz..
its like, arghh...
i dunno y but i'm quite affected by this.
i think i'm ~~kinda~~ DAMN emo nowadays.

the girl who got involved in the accident may die.
even if she lived, she'll become blind.
i'm feeling damn sorry for her.
her name is VALINE.
i shall pray for you.

now for some happier things.
i saw the beautiful side of mankind.
hahas.
the sweet side, the good side.
` a teen girl lying on her mama on the train to sleep.
` a crippled man returning a wallet he found.
theres a whole lot more but i just cannot remember all.

AND I KNOW I'M LOVED!!

mum cares

2006-05-07T04:08:00.000+08:00

my mum cares for me.
thats for sure.
she called up my cousin to ask if poly life is really that busy.
hahas. YES I LOVE HER!

SHINGAY and me talked a whole lot today.
i love SHINGAY.
he loves me but just dun wanna admit it =DD

yes i got into NRA.
but i really dun think i deserve it.
okay. i've seen other dancers do it.
they did it better than me.
they din get it.
that made me feel bad enuff already.
ARHHH!!

PAP won the election of my constituent.
hope they can bring better life to SINGAPORE.

MAY is a horrible month.
the month where money flows out like water.
tonns of friends having their birthdays,
mama's days always a headache.
ahh!! WADEVER!!

i wanna do something i like.
and not regret not doing it now in future.
please understand.
but still, i will pioritise.
yes i will =DD

changed man

2006-05-06T12:29:00.000+08:00

yes indeed i've changed.
alot.
jearlene told me that everytime we have meet ups,
she cannot recognise me.
thats the physical looks.
my mentality changed too.
is mentality the right word?

school seriously suck.
i dun understand lectures and stuff.
but friends in NP rawk!
i know i'm repeating myself. =DD

STICK WITH YOU is such a nice song.
its sweet lah. =DD
i need more songs pple!

loads of outings but i'm broke.
=( think i'm finding a job.
hahs! parents dun wanna gimmi too much $ now.
sigh.. i want a job that can bring me tons of marnie w/o having me to work or use too much of my brains.
hahas. be a friend and find me a job like that.
=DD

FRIENDS PLEASE DO NOT QUARREL OKAYS!!

god please let me sleep 23409837 hours more!!

dear jearlene

2006-05-05T09:48:00.000+08:00

i feel exactly like how jearlene is feeling.
90% i would say...

here goes..

"I've been feeling....almost....depressed lately. no, i won't use the word depressed, too major. Yet sad seems so innocuous. I'll settle for dejected. If you've been out with me these few days and you know me really well, you might have noticed me being behaving strangely. If you haven't, well, =)
seriously tho, i dread going home nowadays. Yet at the same time i long to escape the stress and 'left-out-alone' feeling i can get sometimes. i need to be occupied. i need to be distracted. i swear I've never met such persistence in negative feelings for a long, long, and i mean, LONG time. It's like constant roller coaster, yet because i appear fine on the outside. i can almost convince myself that I'm alright. Yet the minute I'm alone, my mind starts to wander down that all-too-familiar path again. "

this is from her blog.
CHEER UP JEARLENE!!

ABC lectures.

2006-05-05T09:34:00.000+08:00

i'm in ABC lecture NOW!!

`mr wayne forday wants us to eat deep fried hamster.
`wei jie is typing his blog entry too
`ate almond sneakers for break
`patrick's in love with jessica.
`yide is talking to jin jie.
`jia jun is loading his WC3 disc.
`kelvin is writing something.
`stamdord is playing with his correction tape.
`pandora is playing with the microsoft homepage.
`shing is out at emart sleeping.
`i'm typing my entry. =D

this is wad we do in lectures.
and know wad?
WE RAWK!!

i woke up late again.
i LOVE to wake up late. =DD
i'm feeling so RANDOM now.

i love my friends.
everyone's concern abt me.
=DDD
HUGGS to all friends of mine!

ask ben abt his HUG i gave =DD

good luck friends.
dun let me see u in school =DD

=DDD <-- this is cool. =DDD

late entry

2006-05-04T23:16:00.001+08:00

i'm just typing this so that my blog shows that i update everyday.

cya LATER !!

changes

2006-05-03T00:21:00.000+08:00

everyone experiences changes in your life.
i've changed drastically ever since.. i forgot when.
i'm different EVERY YEAR. =DD

i lost my wallet..
it was some time ago.
its no new thing.
i ALWAYS lose my wallet.
i hate it. its not like i wanted.
SO DUN BLAME ME.

seriously i hate my life.
i never get to do the things i like.

i'm doing everything not for myself.
its always for someone else.
its not that i mind.
i love doing things for other pple.
i dun need you to show appreciation.
but please dun give me your DAMN STINKY face.
went thru all the shit to get that face from you?
to hell you go man!

i'm dying!

secrets

2006-05-02T00:02:00.000+08:00

hmm.. * was telling me abt he feeling guilty abt sth.
ANOTHER PERSON CONFIDES IN ME.
thanks for trusting me =)

FRIENDS OUT THERE TAKE NOTE..
okay.. i think i tend to lose my temper damn easily nowadays.
please if i offended you please forgive me.
SERIOUSLY, my life's in a mess right now.
although this may goes on for days,
the admin is trying to do sth already.
=)=)

today is quite a boring day lah.
sorry lah but really ah.
i really go town like just to see you all only.
wad to do.. too poor cannot do anything.

okay i am just tired today okay.
DUN THINK THAT I'M NOT OKAY!!

hahas. sorry but corrections!!
i am not okay and i know it..
give me time.
i WANT to change.

alright.. my ego's working on me.
i need some time.
give me time..

kiaps. thanks for those words. =)

give me some time.

blogging..

2006-05-01T03:26:00.000+08:00

hmmm..
i'm trying to keep the habit of blogging everyday.
dunno how much longer will i continue to blog everyday.

today was quite a slackish day for me.

FINALLY went to drums lessons after so long.
hahas.
after that went to raffles link to have ice-cream with ben, zi wei gege and fiona.
then we went to mind's club to play.
mind's club is a damn cool place to chill.
seriously.

after that i went to cut my hair.
i went to angel's place after losing ~~some~~ alot of hair.
WE HAD FONDUE FOR SUPPER!!
damn nice.
thanks angel for inviting me over.
love u guys <3<3<3

a friend smsed me.
sort of confide in me.
i'm kinda glad.
at least i know i'm useful.
as in.. not a worthless friend.
hahas!!

jearl asked me to define a best friend.
to me.. a best friend should be..

someone who comes up to your mind first
when u need someone to talk to or needa voice out something thats bothering you.
someone u have no trouble communicating with.
he/she dun have to share common interest.
but communication is damn important. =D
AND!! he/she must understand you!

but at the same time.. i think that a best friend is just another normal friend.
but the difference is that you love him/her most above all other friends.
i have no best friends YET.
BUT!!! I WILL FIND ONE SOON!!
i still love all my friends =DD

i think that my brain is failing on me.
no i'm not getting older.
but i think its really not working as well as it was before.
wads happening to me?!!

AULE outing tmr!
i wanna make my EZlink.
and i'm suppose to go liane's place.
WHERE SHOULD I GO?!

life is about making choices.
you dun always make the right choice.
your choice may disappoint others.
may also disappoint yourself.
so make your choice wisely!!

The whole point is,
~~I HATE MY LIFE!!~~

but i love my friends =DD

gay

2006-04-30T03:33:00.000+08:00

gay is the 'in' thing to say in school now!
hahas!

woke up damn late today.
and i mean DAMN late..
hahas. if 3pm is still not late to you,
then hahs, i've got nth to say. LoL

you can never be bored when u're with the GLs.
hahs!
went to crash the ARES bbq.
it was alright.
fun to talk to the freshies and fellow GLs.
glad to let ben announce to the freshies his girlfriend.
hahas!

seriously i think any 17 should be matured enuff to know when to do the right things at the right time.
to mr HM. please know your limits.
i'm sorry but i have to say your childish-ness really irritates me and pisses me off.
go get a life man.
thats not the right way to gain attention.

i know i'm always reapleating this but..
i'm really in love with the GLs.
huggs and kisses to GLs.

good night!

EUH!!

2006-04-28T11:14:00.000+08:00

some pple just disgust me.
there currently TWO!

well. one is a desperado.
both are actually.
a male and a female.

the male desperate for someone to talk to.
too enthu.
too much for his 'friends-yet-to-be' to take.
hmmm. we've talked to him b4.
but it seems to be getting worse.
in fact he's sitting right deside me this very moment.
trying to impress us with his gaming skills.
trying to clear our records set in HIS computer.
hahas! good luck dude.

the female is a monster.
she's a damn male stalker please.
she's like.. damn disgusting.
wanna join miss universe?
join miss fat-so or miss disgust and win first maybe.
dun even think u can win.
u're most prolly the WORST girl ever.
the though of u just makes me sick..

WADEVER.

now all the rest are in class.
i have to slack for 2 hours b4 m pract class starts.
great eh?
now i'm stuck with mr J.. DAMMIT!!
where are you guys when i needed u most.

YIDE IF U ARE READING THIS POST PLEASE COME DOWN TO EMART NOWWWW!!!

gays!

i'm DAMN BORED!!
someone save me. =(

new skin!

2006-04-28T00:40:00.000+08:00

okay. my previous skin is a gonner.
dunno wad happened.
so here's the new look.
hope u all like it =)

okays.
now i dunno who my friends really are.
hmmm..
some of them are going away.
its damn sad..
wad have i done..??

MR GAY!
i AM high even in school okays.
just that u are so unlucky to see me when i am tired.
so please dun say i am freaking stony in school.

wad are friends for?
sometimes i wonder.
will they really be there for you.
now i think in this world,
only you and you yourself stands alone.
hmmm.??
correct me if i'm wrong bah. =/

i'm hating school like before =/

good night pple.

dumb

2006-04-26T22:06:00.000+08:00

talking to alot pple lately.
i have to admit i'm slowly losing faith.
wadever.

today is wednesday.
NO GL training.
somehow there's this "i-did-not-do-something" feeling.
hahas. i miss GL trainings.

read a friend's blog.
well i really feel sad for him.
we're very much the same i can say.
they dun care but yeah.
we've got to learn to be independent.
JIA YOU!!

i have friends who cares =]

camp

2006-04-25T22:26:00.000+08:00

LSCT OEI!!

camp is over.
but the campers spirit remains!!

LSCT FOC was a blast!
i love my varda babies.
i love the rest of the groups as well!
there's..
Varda, Aule, Ares, Triton, Skoffin, Obour, Ifrit, Kraken.
all so ON, all so steady.
SI SHUA SHUA, SI SHUA SHUA LIFE SCIENCE!!

for varda.. there's
serene, jeremiah, joseph, yong jun, hansel, elizabeth, liang huo, chew hua, meiqi, vanessa, beesim, joey, mun kay, benedict, joel, si wei, maxine, rachel, chun rong, sin teck, dawn, li jun and suhua!

plus of course the 2 fake freshies, mahathir and emily!
hahas!

i love all of them.

all were so high!
participated very ON-ly and gave their 100%.
YES I HATE FLOUR AND PLANTA.
had them during MOST of our trainings.
VARDA went thru the 3 days together.
as a big VARDA family =))

a lil abt the camp.
prep camp was horrible.
lots to do so little time.
last minute meetings etc.
games briefing.
but still we made it.
then the last night b4 FOC,
there's this video that makes our eyes water.
hahas.

then FOC CAME!!
the last few days when GLs are GLs.
early morn did the human chain thing plus FID.
after that was camp registration.
then here comes VARDA.
one by one they join the group.
then had ice breakers, telematch and ah liang.
night time was angels and devils.

I LOVE MY FROG SONG ACTIONS

wash up after toilet control.
debrief and then lights out. zz

VARDA will win the war.

second day was SIAO!!
mass game station games then wash up.
PERFORMANCE NIGHT WAS DAMN COOL!!
we din know abt the flag thing.
it was kinda.. impromtool.
haha!
but still it looked damn cool.

performance night started off with GLs dancing.
woah are we COOL or wad. LOL

then there was this mass cheer and dance while i go to night walk station to prepare.
damn sad cannot spend time with my VARDA babies but.
hahas.
gracia sent me sth that really touched me.
~~and i felt damn molested~~
she sent sth like..
"omg VARDA is like damn high lah. too bad u're not here to see them. i'm so damn touched and proud of them."

and i called gracia immediatly to confirm.
hahs!
then she called back and VARDA went,

"LYEHUAT!! WE LOVE YOU!!"

and my heart melted...

NIGHT WALK WAS A KILLER.
slept during the night walk.
hahas! sadly no ghostly encounters.
but still it was fun.
everything ended by 5? if i din remember wrongly.
then there was the draw-the-sleepers session.
dun be offended ah freshies if u are drawn.
its only a tradition. hahas!
gerard drew my face b4 we both slept and the tennis table.
how GAY could that be?

third morning.
HIGH!!
i dare to say by third day morning, no one wants to leave.
after breakfast,
was supposed to clean up and stuff but hahas!
i told VARDA to dance MACARENA in front.
to our surprise all the other groups join in!!
hahas. and so it became a mass dance.
and we all got high IN THE MORNING

okay. after that was variety show which all of them enjoyed i think.
then was camp debrief for freshies.
they left after their own group debrief and bye bye!!
okays i cried lah!

GLs stayed a lil while long to pack up.
then our debrief, the stupid rainbow video is shown again.
this time i teared. AHHH!!
i just cannot control.
after packing up we all left...
FOR KAP!!!
haha! the usual!
then we headed back home.

this now is dedicated for all my fellow GLs.

for these all 8 months or more of trainings.
i have grown up alot with you.
i met alot of different pple. and i got to know you.
as days goes by, my love for GLs grown deeper.
its all because of you.
from our first training, to GL chalet, sentosa training, hit and run to FOC.
i enjoyed every moment i spent with the GLs.
i have never, and i have to emphasize.. NEVER in my life,
love something so much before.
this is wad i really call FAMILY.
PLEASE DUN EVER LEAVE ME AND MY DUMB OLD LIFE.
i will not be able to take it.
i'm serious. i'm staying because of you.
i love you my fellow GL maties. i LOVE you.
if you still remember this song.
now i really treasure it.
i din know the meaning to this song until today.
yeah and this is..

AT THE BEGINING...

We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we’d have to go through
Now here we are, I’m suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope, you were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Knew there was somebody, somewhere
A new love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I’ve been waiting so long
Nothing’s gonna tear us apart

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Yeah

Life is a road that I wanna keep going on
Love is a river, I wanna keep going

Starting out on a journey

Life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

I LOVE YOU ALL DEEP DEEP GEELS!!

dearest GEELL

2006-04-14T04:53:00.000+08:00

i'm excited abt FOC.
but at the same time i dun wan it to come.
i wanna stay a GEELL forever.

yes you may say we can come back for wednesdays trainings.
but its not the same anymore.
next sem when we come back we'll be GL,
but with a BIG FAT S in front. =(

FOC is nearing.
they'll be playing grad song by vit C.
i heard that song today.
i cannot help it but cry.
HEY I'M NO GAY.
its just i remembered the past.
i hate goodbyes.
GEELLs, tell me you'll never leave my life.

believe it or not prep camp is tomorrow.
after one year of training.
the 'graduation ceremony' like wad yibin said is coming.
no more acting like a kid anymore.
ignorance is no more an excuse.
initiative is wad we've got to have.
and the ABCDs.
are we ready for FOC?
YES WE ARE MAN!

i've changed alot after joining GEELL.
i dunno if its for the better.
but i'm okay with the change.

i love my friends in GEELLs.
i'd love to name them all but hahas.
i really feel that we're one big family.
i love to cheer with them,
laugh with them,
have fun with them.
the bond is so strong that i dun wanna see anyone of u leave.

i really feel that i'm a damn lucky guy.
i feel so loved by everyone around me.
did i say that in my previous post?
hahas!

lets all jia you for FOC.
everyone take care.
lets give our GEELL journey a perfect ending bah.

to all GEELLs:
i'd love you from the bottom of my heart.
reach out to me and i'll promise to be there. =)

sweets

2006-04-10T23:02:00.001+08:00

i think that i'm so loved.
by everyone i know.
okay there ought to be some who dun really like me but..
haha. i feel so blessed to be loved.

today i had the worst morning of my life man.
dun wanna elaborate.

i doubted myself but i checked with my friends.
and then i found out new things that i never know of abt myself.
yays!!

thanks everyone for being sweet and stuff.
i love all of ya!!

2006-04-10T23:02:00.000+08:00

school

2006-04-06T12:36:00.000+08:00

chose my IS for next sem.
health and lifestyle.
cool yeah?
okays.. its not but no choice?
hahas. coz dumb jess and kiat.
such a nice friend i am =)

alright now in school waiting for certain pple.
who always wanna meet early
but never there in time.
talk so much cock but no work done.
majiam empty vessels.
you know... EMPTY VESSELS MAKES THE MOST NOISE !!

wadever.

class chalet was .. cool
NSS chalet was .. cool
i wun say that they are fun,
but i did enjoyed myself.
no offense to the organisers but
i think that chalet is not a time for u to have fun anymore.
its more of a meet up with the pple u seldom see anymore.
i miss my secondary school pple.
=D

gonna dance later.
i know u wanna know wad happened to me in my chalet.
but. HAHAS its wayne's com
i dun wanna waste batt =D

no choice

2006-04-02T23:19:00.000+08:00

sometimes pple have to be contented with wad they have.
its like, i dun expect miss universe to fall in love with me.
WADEVER!

some pple are just so demanding.

sentosa today.
please the adventurers rawks man!
thats me and gerard.
we went to climb mols(moss) everest,
took some photos,
made a fool outta ourselves and left =)
~~we had 4 losers disciples~~
the 4 who came after us were kiat weng sharon and yide
~~they were losers man!!~~
okay i'm only joking =)

NO SUN AT SENTOSA!!

thats dumb =/

today everyone was in a nail polish frenzy.
for some reason,
everyone want their nails painted =)
well.. i had my toe thumb and little finger painted.
=)

went to ~~bitch~~ road again today for good food.
omg the tang yuan is like heavenly.
sorry i lack vocabs to describe =/
but seriously, if u had the chance
just go and try..
u wun regret =)

tomorrow is the class chalet.
its gonna be fun fun fun fun fun fun!!
BUT AT THE SAME TIME,
i must do my GEELLs stuffs =(
well they say work and play dun mix but....
I DUN CARE!!

i've got the sudden urge to tell all my GEELL friends,
dun forget me after FOC..
i wanna be your friend forever.
i love every single one of you.
i dun wan anyone of you to leave me.
i sometimes dun wan FOC to come.
i just love u all too much.
i love kiat kiap jere jamine ben weng jessica gerard shing yide sharon joel felicia and the list goes on.
no time to write the 38 of your names.
please dun quit now alrights?
ZILLION MUACKS TO GEELLSSss

JEREMY YEO (JESSICA),
you've done loads for your lock cock(log comm)!
so just shaddup and wait for a sucessful FOC!!
dun worry alrights! =)

hua hua

2006-04-01T00:45:00.001+08:00

seriously, i think we have to be more serious abt the dance already.
there are pple who cannot go practice but still going.
there are also pple who can go just dun wanna go.
i dun understand why.
i pity jess ben and weng.
we dun have much time left pple.
yes the dance is fun,
but when its time to get serious please do.

i'm no one to give credits to or speak up for these pple but,
i feel that i HAVE TO..
u can think that i think too highly of myself to thank them,
WADEVER..

KIAPS..
you guys dun know wad he's going thru.
he's not very happy with his work or wadever.
he's damn sick now and still have to worry abt FOC.
he din bother to rest at home for few days before he go practice his dance.
please, he's doing his very best.

SHARON..
she may not say it but,
her parents are against her going to GEELLs.
and i'm sure u can see how much effort she takes to come to trainings and meetings,
despited being scolded at.
i truely admire her determination to committe despite parents disapproval.
and does she complains abt having too much meetings or having to come to school too early?

JESSICA..
she is stress enuff for her NRA.
now the dance head.
she's worried we cannot dance well by FOC.
some pple just dun show their feelings.
jessica jia you!!

BEN(JAMINE)..
though he is not as loud,
but he tries his best to control the bunch of monkeys at dance practices (no offenses)
lost his voice but no one cares?
he sometimes have to skip PAID LESSONS outside for GEELLs committment.
no complains..

WENG..
she's stressed with the games okay.
and she still puts an effort trying to help out in the dance.
thanks for being my partner =]

PEIWEN..
u all really dunno wad she's going thru.
she might not want her friends to know.
but she is facing some kind of a problem.

and wad do u know abt me?

please pay more attention to ya fellow GEELL friends.
they have enuff troubles already.
the very least u can do it to co-operate with them,
talk to them and understand them.
is that too much to ask of you?

how long more to FOC? 16 days
are we ready yet?
not to demoralise you but.. I DUN THINK SO!!

hua hua

2006-04-01T00:45:00.000+08:00

seriously, i think we have to be more serious abt the dance already.
there are pple who cannot go practice but still going.
there are also pple who can go just dun wanna go.
i dun understand why.
i pity jess ben and weng.
why not just cancle the dance if u all dun wanna get serious at all.
we dun have much time left pple.
yes the dance is fun,
but when its time to get serious please do.

i'm no one to give credits to or speak up for these pple but,
i feel that i HAVE TO..
u can think that i think too highly of myself to thank them,
HATE ME..
WADEVER..

KIAPS..
you guys dun know wad he's going thru.
he's not very happy with his work or wadever.
he's damn sick now and still have to worry abt FOC.
he din bother to rest at home for few days before he go practice his dance.
please, he's doing his very best.

SHARON..
she may not say it but,
her parents are against her going to GEELLs.
and i'm sure u can see how much effort she takes to come to trainings and meetings,
despited being scolded at.
i truely admire her determination to committe despite parents disapproval.
and does she complains abt having too much meetings or having to come to school too early?

JESSICA..
she is stress enuff for her NRA.
now the dance head.
she's worried we cannot dance well by FOC.
some pple just dun show their feelings.
jessica jia you!!

BEN(JAMINE)..
though he is not as loud,
but he tries his best to control the bunch of monkeys at dance practices (no offenses)
lost his voice but no one cares?
he sometimes have to skip PAID LESSONS outside for GEELLs committment.
no complains..

WENG..
she's stressed with the games okay.
and she still puts an effort trying to help out in the dance.
thanks for being my partner =]

PEIWEN..
u all really dunno wad she's going thru.
she might not want her friends to know.
but she is facing some kind of a problem.

and wad do u know abt me?

please pay more attention to ya fellow GEELL friends.
they have enuff troubles already.
the very least u can do it to co-operate with them,
talk to them and understand them.
is that too much to ask of you?

how long more to FOC? 16 days
are we ready yet?
not to demoralise you but.. I DUN THINK SO!!

baby tamagotchi

2006-03-29T00:23:00.000+08:00

my tamagotchi just gave birth to a baby.
well, its kinda weird.
my tamagotchi is a male. how could that have happened?
hmmm..

chatter with JAMIN and shingo today.
talking abt suicide.
yeah. thats like.. freaky but,
being in this stressful society,
you really never know when the thought of wanting to suicide will hit u.
i was telling them i will suicide after NS or sth.
coz after NS got to work and stuffs?
now already stress like shit. imagine when working.

FOC camp response was good =)
hope that the intake would increase =)
u hear that RON??

saw the couple dance.
damn cool. =)

more pple blog!

2006-03-27T22:52:00.000+08:00

okay now more and more pple are blogging.
thats cool.
got three new pple on ma link list.
WHOOHOO.
i think everyone should blog =)
cause LEE LYE HUAT wanna know wads happening to ya life!

i've got eggs everywhere on my blog now.
they're gonna hatch on 4th April.
lets see wad they're gonna hatch into. =)
*i love surprises

ah yeo din join us for dinner today.
he just told me that two days w/o GEELLs like very sian.

sometimes i feel that GEELLs is like really a very big part of my life now.
i think i really cannot live w/o GEELLs now.
can u imagine how bonded we are?
everyone in GEELLs are my brothers and sisters.
i heart all of them =) muacks!

shing was playing this song which made me all emo.
i cannot really rememeber the lyrics but it goes sth like this.
"and i'll be there for u whenever u need me and i swear"

this kept me thinking,
is there such a person in my life.
well the answer is like .. NO
i dun blame anyone for that.
i think i'm too busy to really have time to spend with friends.
its lucky i have my GEELLs with me.
haha. fancy me having my own problems with friends but still helping others (aka KPO).

some pple just pisses you off.
s/he dun need to do anything to you to irritate you.
but his/her actions or things s/he do to pple just turns u off.
making u really wanna just f him upside down.
okays. i think he should know who s/he is.
well if u are reading this please try to change.
well now talking dun work its like wad to do?
shall just give up =)

everyone is like so stressed up now.
i dunno but everyone just chill and everything shall turn out fine!!
maucks to all my friends!

hmmm..

2006-03-26T23:22:00.000+08:00

do u really know who u are?
wad u wanan be?
wad u gonna be?

dun ask me coz i really got no idea =/

sadness

2006-03-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

i think i'm damn immature

my spending pattern is really killing my family i think.
now my brother cannot afford his laptop.
its only now then i know my family a lil financial.
no more new clothes.

i get everything i want.
but not my brother.
i do anything i want.
but not my brother.

he's always doing the work and me?
i'm like the king of the house.
i need not do any house work.
my mum and brother does the house chores.
and i'm still complaining.
its only today then i realise how lucky i am.

sometimes i think that my brother ending up not getting good results is like wad my father said, partly because of my bad influences on him.

i'm starting to think that i'm not a good brother.
wads the point of being head of wadever outside home,
when i cannot even give enuff time for home myself?

looks gives u friend for at most 1 year,
your heart brings u friends that journey your life with u forever.

hmm.

2006-03-24T00:30:00.000+08:00

can anyone just tell me wads love?

GAYS!!

=]

2006-03-23T00:57:00.000+08:00

i love X) and XD
thanks for being like so ..
sweet.. holding me back
you know i thought for like v long abt it already.
but thanks really.

XD is a damn nice dude and X) is a damn nice babe.

i pissed someone off today.
seriously i din mean it.
if my words did hurt you i have to really apologise.
i din mean it.
okay.. i was like insensitive lah but PROMISE not to do it again.
PLEASE forgive me??

i love LSCT GEELLs

2006-03-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

its damn stress
to have to many things to do,
having so little time.
to hold great responsibility,
not being sure if you can do it.

`struggling

camp

2006-03-11T06:33:00.000+08:00

alrights. all those who loves me.
~~which means everybody~~
i'm goning to camp today!
dun miss me alright.

100th

2006-03-09T00:25:00.000+08:00

my blog is 100 post old.
still loving it.

some pple make friends with you to make use of you.
sometimes they dun even take you as a friend.
just putting a facade so as to be able to 'use' you.
god kill these pple man.

hols. a lot of committment.
i try to keep myself damn busy.

do not give in to me if i'm wrong =]

band

2006-03-03T02:22:00.000+08:00

tomorrow's my last paper.
after the i'll be free for awhile,
get my results and i'll go suicide.

i missed band days.
i actually dreamt of hidayah and rasyidah.
thinking abt them too much i guess.
i dreamt that me and hidayah met to go band.
then saw rasyidah in sch.
playing her trumpet already.
pang seh us. LoL.
think me and salomah were late.
they're having breaks already. haha!
those were the good old days.

those days i missed so much.
sectional everyday.
secretly playing other instruments.
faking thru the pumpings.
my sweet seniors.
my favourite juniors.
the teachers in charge.
mr tan and me tay.
my favourite pieces.
the SYF concert hall.
the baton in my hands.
marking attendances.
help hafiz zao geng.
bully jing ying.
slacking during warm ups.
talking back to seniors =P
BAND CAMPS.
band exchanges.
FORTE and PASSION ARTS.
my flute and piccolo.
libararian cupboard and ladder =)
lydia and wiwik sorting scores.
milo can for 80 cents.
fishy BURGUR!!
all the goofy faces.
drills under the hot sun.
hanging out after band.
committee meetings.

all the small things that happened.
happy or sad.
its all a memory now.
kept in my heart.
i think i can still remember every single moment.
i love nsssb
i miss nsssb
for w/o nsssb, there is no lye huat today!
thank you for everything.

attitude

2006-03-01T04:21:00.000+08:00

i've got an attitude.
i fucked up attitude.

good luck to friends taking A lvl results today.
may you pple ~~pass~~ do well with flying colours!

all 3 papers down.
fail for sure.
i really have ZERO confidence.
IPC's only hope.
HOW MUCH HOPE CAN I PUT ON THIS DAMN DIFFICULT MODULE??!!

its okay.
always look on the bright side of life.
~whistle

i'm getting FAT
yeah F-A-T, fat

i feel as tho everything was taken away from me.
never felt like this before.

life still goes on.
misery

i need a break

2006-02-27T04:04:00.000+08:00

I NEED A BREAKKKKKK

and i mean it.

microbio suck! math suck!

i dunno wad am i doing, why i made these decisions.

SOMEBODY KILL ME!!

maths killer

2006-02-25T00:17:00.000+08:00

lights on when you open your house door late at night means ' welcome home ' =]

maths is a killer.
but some pple find it easy.
i'm just not a maths person i guess.
its so demoralising to see pple doing the paper w/o any difficulties,
and you struggling just trying to finish the paper.
pple not studying much and still can do better.
some pple just dunno how it feels to be like me.

i think other papers gonna be the same.
pple who dun study much gets good results.
me who tried my best gets shit.
maybe i deserve it for being last minute.

bee hiong's birthday bbq today.
hope she had fun.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEE HIONG!!

TURTLE IS SICK!! =[

some pple are just trees along the express way

junk

2006-02-21T03:51:00.000+08:00

i'm not rose, but a covered pot of hot shit.
i'm not sweet potatoe either.
maybe i was. but.
something changed me.

karma

2006-02-21T03:11:00.000+08:00

do you believe in karma?

we were all there when we made the promise
never to let go..

the swing, 20 Febuary 2005

the post today damn random.
i'm just typing the things that comes to my mind now.

i'm kinda tired of life.
its the repeatitive routine everyday i go thru.
yes everyday may differ slightly
but wads the difference.
i need to study EVERYDAY
i need to entertain my friends everyday
i'm sorry to say this but sometimes,
i feel that i'm entertaining my friends too much.
i hardly have time for myself.

i cannot remember the last time my parents praised me

"i not stupid too" reminded me of this

sometimes, i feel so lack of confidence.
the IS actually this INFERIOR side of me.
just that i refuse to give in to this feeling.
why do u think i keep calling myself cute for no reasons.

self praising does boost confidence

have you ever had this strong feeling,
which tells you not to do certain things at certain times?

trust your instincts.
they're right most of the time.

its this gut feeling you have.
its like your heart warning you that wad u are doing might be dangerous.
i guess its a gift from our creators (which i have yet to know who)

j told me she's leading an aimless life.
j, here's the good news.
you have me as your company.
i have no aims in life now.

CAN ANYONE TELL ME WAD I SHOULD DO??!!

i'm tired of the shit i get everyday.
i feel like just ending everything like that.

i love all my friends.

life's like a movie.

you are the main character in your movie.
its up to you whether you want to direct the movie yourself,
or have assistance who might end up directing the movie for you.
there are supporting actors in your movies.
you cannot control their roles since the script is not written by you.
so who's the script writer?
well no one knows..

how i wish life was just growing crops and rearing chickens

huatose lee lye huat, 21 Febuary 2005

who are the pple you can really trust?
well. you've got to really KNOW the person well enuff.
and how do you know if you know him well enuff already?
thats life.

no one said life was fair

i'm starting to miss someone already.
does he/she reads my blog?!?!?!

i'm growing FATTER!! =[
you can call me FATASS now =]

boring fridays

2006-02-17T17:26:00.000+08:00

no time for updates
take care my friends

lost wallet

2006-02-02T01:32:00.000+08:00

i dunno why but the title of my posts just dun apprear on the entries.
wadever.

i almost lost my wallet again.
lucky this ~~gayish~~ from trans-island picked it up for me and of course returned it to me =]
thanks!

tot i'd be late for sch today.
phew i was not.
sorry for those who prayed i will be.
try harder next time.

MST lectures are becoming more and more pointless.
who cares abt stats, gradient and all.
i dun even know why i'm in this course.
well, the pple are nice yes.
but, maybe life science is just not for me.
well. wadever!

yes. life talk.
today on the way to sch (with weijie the GREAAATTT ~~sucker~~)
this horribily dressed uncle was kao peh-ing on the phone.
some phone bill matters.
i was thinking it must have been a hard time for the guy on the line serving him.
he was practically shouting as tho he wants the whole world to know SH over charged him.
the operator than transfered his call to another department.
and so the KP-ing continues.

when finally the matter is settled,
this uncle decided to be nice.
and told the person on the line
that the guy serving him before the current operator's service was superb.
he wanted the current operator talking to him to raise this to their superior.
and wish that the previous operator would be rewarded or praised in some ways.

well i wasn't expecting that.
i mean not from someone like him.
someone who hack abt his dressing.
well. okay i think i'm biased.
i mean i KNOW i'm bias.

so wad's the morale of the story.
dun judge the book by its cover.
dun judge me by my hunky look and handsome face.
i might just be back stabbing you all the while.. heh heh heh..

CNY

2006-01-30T15:46:00.000+08:00

this year cny is really.
sigh.
BORING!!

officially 18

2006-01-28T17:20:00.000+08:00

hello EVERYONE
i'm officially EIGHTEEN
tell me its no big thing and i will give u one slap

hah!
well being 18 means alot.
well.
i get more freedom.
i can drink alcohol (no more hiding).
i can sign my own line.
i can have sex and not be charged.
i can get married.
i can call to support NKF w/o asking parental approval.
i can go clubbing.
i can buy cigarette.

but..

i can go to jail for crimes.
i can get caned if i commit crimes.
i got more responsibility

a part of me want this day to come.
another is unwilling to turn 18.
aww.
i just wanna stay forever young with all the freedom i can get =]

yesterday celebrated my bdae at marina.
i was really damn happy lah.
had a really good time.
thanks all.

i love the food.
i love my friends feeding me.
i love the company of friends.
i love the presents.
i love the raping and harley.
i love the alcoholic choco.
i love the sips of beer.
i love the trip home.
i love the celebration.

thanks all friends who went.
all who gave presents.

i love all my friends.
I LOVE MYSELF =P

new phone number

2006-01-21T21:01:00.000+08:00

erms.
i got a new temp no.
well i wonder if its right showing it up on a blog?
but anyway, here goes..
94209615
not very hard to remember i hope.

CATS project sucks.

din go to sentosa with friends today coz of that stupid proj =@
now that ben's in camp and the other 2 biz pple are overseas.
i'm the only one left to do it.
y does it have to be me to sacrifice my fun!

actually i din do much of the proj
haha!
anyway, thats not the only one proj we got to do.
microbio. oh shit
hah!

so many things to do!!

lost phone

2006-01-17T01:40:00.000+08:00

hey pple.
i lost my phone so please dun call/sms me alright?
okay. today's just not my day.
NOT MY DAY!!

u're beautiful

2006-01-14T00:26:00.000+08:00

there are girls who DO look good if they know how to dress up
hah!
u can ask wei jie wad that means.

was on the way back home today.
just looking around the train.
this pair of damn ugly shoes caught my eyes.
just curious, i looked up at the person wearing it.
oh she was a fashion diseaster.
red strip long sleeve with long skirt below knees.
and she still wore a pair of long pants inside.
its as though she just came back from a retro party?
well then i saw her face.
okay.
the first sight of her made me heave.
then i took a closer look.
she's actually very cute plus pretty kinda girl.
if she were to take off her specs, dress properly, tidy up her long hair
she'd be princess in any fairy tale.

told weijie to look at her.
okay. he din see the 'beautiful' side of her when he first saw her.
but i told him to look properly.
hah! he realised wad i meant.
we both agreed that she is like those female character in serial drama,
those who are like damn geeky.
got a bf who dun treasure her.
got ditched, motivated to make over
and tah-dah!
princess wad-so-ever is born.

so we decided to pass her this message,
it goes exactly like this :

hey,
u're actually very beautiful.
coz WE think so.
have more confidence in yourself okay? =]=]=]

3 pple opp u

well we told her to have more confidence coz she's always looking down.

she got off the train at AMK
and we followed her out.
weijie ran up to her and passed the paper to her.
then both us ran up the escalator.

well
i feel damn good after passing the paper to her.
its like i've done something nice.
hope we see her one day dressing up well
and be beautiful one day.
hope we din freak her out. hah!

lunar birthday

2006-01-10T02:47:00.000+08:00

hah! today is my lunar birthday.
silly mum bought me a cake.
hah!
tot we're supposed to eat vermicelli noodle with an egg.
she got me a cake.
its like any other cakes.
but since she bought it.
its damn nice. hah!
its a milk chocolate 'shavings' cake =]
*slurps

my computer crashed yesterday.
damn.
the NP technical pple are damn good.
they fixed it in like less than 30 mins.
PATTY, u should learn from them. LoL

going to kbox tmr.
yay! shan hu hai!

peace

ah ma again

2006-01-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

damn. got back my results.
they suck okay.
math 59 micro 60
think i bottom the class again.
shit.

okay. sent grandma home again today.
hmm.
i'm such a nice grandson to have. haha!

i dunno but mum keeps asking me to visit ah ma.
i think she's hinting me sth.
maybe she dun want me to know but.
well..

nothing special happened today.
late for math tutorial
took bus to school today.
first time.
bad experience.
first time the bus already slow already.
shit tr*nsit**n* buses.

citycab rawks.
others can go die if they dun improve their service.

this is like open to all.
erms. 27th January going to marina steamboat.
if your even know the occasion.
anyone wanna come?
give me a call or leave me a message.
lotsa pple going.
sure alot chio bus shuai ge
if dun have also have me and yichao.
NP manhunt finalist. LoL.

okays. got to go now.
now to all my malay friends :
SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!
to all my friends :
enjoy your holiday =]

peace

ah mah

2006-01-08T16:14:00.000+08:00

yay!
my grandma is here =]
i'm like so glad.
haha.
i love it when she comes over.
i love grandma =]

this is like so shitty.
so many new phones i wanna get my hands on.
nokias and SEs.
hmm..
most wanted N80 and W900i.
anyone please?

i feel so bad
okay i like it when grandma comes.
but she just clean the house,
then leave.
i'm like not talking to her or anything but just doing my own stuffs.
hmm..
i want to talk to her but dunno how to.
like i DUN think there is a common topic.
she told me no more new clothes and hang around with the right group of friends.
for her i will. =]
see!
such a nice grandson i am.

yesterday went out with angel kavan and liane.
jearl went home coz she's sick ~~in the head~~ =[
after that was with the GEELL.
then slept over at wenbin's place.
just finished drums class and i'm damn shagged =/

NRA pple were cool.
ben was cool.
jessica was cool.
sarah was cool.
weng was cool.
wayne was cool.
all so cool.
~~i'm hot~~

ice-cream at gelare (far east)
service suck big time

esplanade was cool.
photo taking session was farnie.
kelvin.. aww.. camera shy LOL.

took a bus to cineleisure meet GEELLs
craps for awhile.
then everyone went home.
now everyone has their own claps =]

after that. off to wenbin house.
KELVIN IS A PSK
lol.

i just sent my grandma home.
sad =[
she must be the nicest ah mah around lah.
she saw the seats at the bus stop wet (raining_)
she told me in hokkien of course
"should have broght tissue down. later other pple wanna seat cannot sit"
she's so nice.
grandpa must be so lucky to have her as wife.

yes i have came out with my birthday wishlist.
sorry for the suspense LOL
here it goes..

`miyazawa/altus flute. professional series please.
`drum set
`new phone. N80 or W900i
`huggs and kisses =]

these are the nonos..

x. BILLABONGS
x. teddy bears
x. sex stuffs are welcome but please make sure i can use and enjoy them.
p.s pei wen: no bras okay.

yes thats abt it
i love to go out

peace

b'dae presents

2006-01-07T02:03:00.000+08:00

okay pple.
dun buy my b'dae presents just yet..
i'll come out with my wishlist soon =]
now just save up =]

today last paper..
physio. not that difficult lah
haha.
so guess there's still hope i wun repeat this module.

after paper went to town with GEELLs
no choice
cannot find keys.
anyway
went to support the NRA GEELLs.
wow they were seriously great.
claps claps for them =]

alright.
after that got a lil high and started fooling around.
woah!

damn tired now.
dun be jealous of my busy life.
sorry if i haven been replying messages.
=]

peace

new blog skin

2006-01-06T01:30:00.000+08:00

yay! i got new blog skin..
changed it MYSELF..

COMMON TEST PERIOD
sucks

i think i've been playing too much
everyday meet GEELLs play until never study
say go study in school end up playing, fooling around..
can't blame us..
we're the GEELLs

microbio is shitty
maths is a gonner
ipc cannot finish
physio haven study

shouldn't i be studying physio now?
btw its 0140 now.. and test is later
i'm still at red blood cell
i dun care abt physio anymore
everyone's been telling me physio easy
wait till i do the test
if its difficult.. haha!
thats the end of u guys alright?
i TRUST u all..

JING DIN INVITE ME TO HER B'DAE CHALET
okay.. i take it as it slipped her mind
hah!
its okay even if she dun want to invite me
i'll go and curse that her daughter will die
then all her other friends will pray for her duaghter
so her daughter will not die but fall into a deep deep sleep at her 18th birthday
until prince charming comes and kiss her
and TAH DAH!! she awakes..
this is so.. sleeping beauty..
NOT JING.. her daughter..
CRAPS!!

alright
gotta get back to physio..
GOING OUT AFTER PHYSIO TEST TMR
dun envy me.. =]

peace

2006-01-01T17:13:00.000+08:00

i woke up this morning and noticed it's 2006 already..
sadness

guess how i spent my last day of 2005
i spent this pathetic day at home
how much greater can it be?

tell me how sway i am to get sick on the last day of the year..
i actually wanted to go to the new year party at jurong to support my friend
but.. darn.. i'm sick..

worse thing is that i was alone the whole day..
okay.. my brother is at home
but hah.. who cares..

you know how miserable it is to stay at home
thinking how much fun others are having and you lying on your bed
i almost died
have u ever puke sapphire substance? shit you

yeah there are friends who cared and asked if i'm alright
i'm really thankful
though i'm still alone physically
but i know there are pple who cares out there

new year's here
shit 2005
goes pass so fast for wad
haven even enjoyed myself enough and its gone..

i'll soon be 18.. shit that..
dun u just not want to grow up

2005 is full of shit.. hah!
lets see wad 2006 brings..

new year

2006-01-01T16:51:00.000+08:00

i woke up this morning and noticed it's 2006 already..
sadness

guess how i spent my last day of 2005
i spent this pathetic day at home
how much greater can it be?

tell me how sway i am to get sick on the last day of the year..
i actually wanted to go to the new year party at jurong to support my friend
but.. darn.. i'm sick..

worse thing is that i was alone the whole day..
okay.. my brother is at home
but hah.. who cares..

you know how miserable it is to stay at home
thinking how much fun others are having and you lying on your bed
i almost died okay
have u ever puke sapphire substance? shit you

yeah there are friends who cared and asked if i'm alright
i'm really thankful
though i'm still alone physically
but i know there are pple who cares out there

new year's here
shit 2005
goes pass so fast for wad
haven even enjoyed myself enough and its gone..
i'll soon be 18.. shit that.. dun u just not want to grow up

2005 is full of shit.. hah!
lets see wad 2006 brings..

2005-12-26T22:48:00.000+08:00

i just fell in love with lsct GEELLs..

after the chalet, its like..
i feel so much more bonded with the GEELLs..
i understand my friends in GLs more
we talked, laughed and had loads of fun together..
we spent lotsa precious time together
one night stand with kiap
ton at his house and feli's condo before and after the chalet
marinating all the bbq food
loads of cycling
a lil of sleeping (not for me, i slept alot =x)
bitchy time at the beach
the ghostly encounters..
so many things happened
i just fell in love not knowing..

that day at feli's house..
it was like damn cold..
but we were covered in feli's ~~STINKY~~ sleeping bag
the warmth
undescribe-able
we talk damn lot
we laughed all night until the neighbour came knocking on the door
hahas!

i'm not forgetting my class pple as well
i missed them loads too..
can't wait to see them when sch reopens.. =]

and of course my secondary sch loveys..
i slept my whole christmas..
i forgot to remind them to wake me up
i missed them too
tho our last meeting was not long ago

my cousins..
THEY SAID THEY WANTED TO JIO ME FOR CHRISTMAS AS WELL
shit them..
i still love them lahs..

i kinda miss my sec sch gay gang..
kelvin lch lcp ah bin varian
all those northland-pk-ers
remember last christmas..
spraying ban*****hs at orchard
aww.. i miss gaying with them..

and my other clique of friends..
dunno which group they belong to..
haha!
i missed all of them..

i still din get to have a christmas with all of them with me..
CAN I PLEASE HAVE EVERYONE THERE ON MY BIRTHDAY??
I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!

=]

2005-12-21T09:03:00.000+08:00

actually, i quite a happy man now

i got back my iAudio
i watched movies
i talked to my friends
i'm waiting for my christmas present..

many friends asked abt me after that post.
many thanks to all of you

i love you!

king kong died..
aww man!
ann dunno how to protect king kong..

lye huat can cook porridge!

ANGEL!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

thanks ron and huiting =]

i have loads of good friends around..
i'm happy to have found and met all of you
but i am greedy
i still want a soul mate =]
applicants please send in your applications via sms or msn messenger
u can also send in your application via snail mail
get my address from me =]

okay my post today is kinda random and all over the place..
but anyways,
GOOD DAY TO ALL OF YOU!!

how u define rich or poor

2005-12-17T20:58:00.000+08:00

how do u define rich or poor

its damn sad..

i'm so jealous of kelvin and pandora
their dad got them a drum set each

i'm so jealous of peiling, stamford and other pple in strings
they all got their own violins

i'm so jealous of joeven, yong ren and benjamin
all 3 of my juniors all got their own flute

well.. it'd be really great to have your own instruments
i mean its your very own instrument..
wads the use of learning that instrument
not being able to own one yourself?

pple keep calling me rich..
do u think i am?
u never know how fast my bank acc is running
u all love checking my wallet
when u all see stacks of cash
u all assume that i'm rich
u all never bother to ask wads the money for..
and yes i do take cabs to school..
but u think i had a choice?
if i wasn't late u think i will take a cab down to school?

i've always wanted to study music
i know that i will survive in nafa
but music is wad i really wanna take
at least i'm doing wad i love
u think i like biotech so much?
well u're so wrong..
I HATE BIOTECH
fancy looking into microscope looking at cells..
doing things so not related to the course (like maths)..
wad do i get after 3 years there?
come out become lab tech?
such an ideal job huh..
doing things i hate is not the worst
wads worse is the stress being around so many pple much cleverer than you..

microbio test is over..
i sacrficed my sleep to study
if i still fail this test i really got nth to say
i keep telling myself
"i'm not stupid, i'm just a lil slower than the others"
but its not helping

its horrible to see your class do well in the exams
and you yourself do badly..
i cannot help it but to see myself as stupid..
i'm trying very hard to not think myself as useless
but i cannot help it..

when i see pple being able to memorise things just in a snap of his fingers..
i always think y m i so forgetful..

i feel so alone nowadays
i dunno y
i think i chose to be alone

i feel myself moving further and further away from my friends
i dun think i'm communicating well..
i feel that my presence in the group is no longer important..
me being there or not does not matter anymore
maybe they feel that when i'm not there
the group will be happier..

wads the use of being there for your friends
when in times u need them
they were never there..
i'm not pointing at anyone of you
but.. i just..

wads the point of doing so much for them
okay, i'm not asking u to give me sth in return
but at least show your appreciation?
sometimes i do feel that i'm taken for granted..
u know how bad it feels like..??

i haven been able to find a soul mate
dun have to be a guy
but someone who i can talk to
complain to
share my sorrows with
my pillow smells better day by day
i guess its because of all my saliva on it
when i talk to it..

i dunno but i think my life really sucks
i'm not doing wad i want
everyday seem to be a misery..
no point waking up every morning
telling myself
"today's gonna be a GOOD day"
anymore..

my cousins and brother all went overseas..
i'm feeling so alone now..
i hate this feeling..
they must be enjoying there..
i'm here in singapore..
studying for my tests..
modules that i hate..
2 weeks of holidays dun seem like holidays to me..
its actually killing me emotionally..

seriously, i'm sick of my life..
i'm trying my best to be positive now..
but obviously, its not working..

i'm all moody and down
i dun feel good..

i do not seek your sympathy..
i just need to find a medium to shout out wad i've been keeping in my mind..
if my post offended anyone of you.. i'm sorry..

2005-12-04T21:01:00.000+08:00

okay now i remember i'm suppose to write sth nice for liane..

LIANE NONIS JOY WEI LING
she's..
I - intelligent to an extend so small, maybe u dun even realise she has intelligence at all..
D - diligent worker working towards stupidity..
I - innocent when we're chatting abt topics with no sexual contents..
O - open minded when it comes to topics with sexual contents..
T - thin, considered thin in the world of extreme fatties..

A - agile like a CLUMSY monkey..
S - sensitive to pinches..
S - seductive since she seduced so many cockroaches to her room..

in summary she is an IDIOT(IC) ASS

lsct

2005-12-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

how should i start?

woke up late today..
supposed to wake up 5 but ended up waking up at 6.30
stupid..how should i start?

woke up late today..
supposed to wake up 5 but ended up waking up at 6.30
stupid..
so had to take a cab down to school

okays..
going to schools on saturday morning can be such a chore..
damn..
but well.. this time,
its for a good course..
collecting food stuffs for the needys..
so i think its not that bad..

after the collection of food from the pple in Jurong West,
GEEELLLs decided to go JP slack..
damn..
i'm gonna be so fat going out with them..
wad i ate today..
mixed vege rice (with 4 dishes),
softee,
mos burger rice buger,
chicken chop..
horrible..

extreme make over hosted by felicia for the guys..

so had to take a cab down to school

okays..
going to schools on saturday morning can be such a chore..
damn..
but well.. this time,
its for a good course..
collecting food stuffs for the needys..
so i think its not that bad..

after the collection of food from the pple in Jurong West,
GEEELLLs decided to go JP slack..
damn..
i'm gonna be so fat going out with them..
wad i ate today..
mixed vege rice (with 4 dishes),
softee,
mos burger rice buger,
chicken chop..
horrible..

extreme make over hosted by felicia for the guys..

tired to the extreme now..
write more later today..

loner

2005-11-27T21:34:00.000+08:00

ever had this feeling when u wake up from a nap
u feel all alone
no one cares about you anymore
feel like you're a loner..
having to urge to sms or call your friend
to make sure that the feeling is so not true..

its horrible i tell u..

there was this time when i had this feeling after waking up from a short nap
and i smsed all my friends
NONE replied..
u know how bad i felt..
but until later that night..
the replies came..
only then then i felt better
i was restless for the rest of the day..

one of my friend told that he is a loner..
i felt like shit after that
its as tho i din make him feel i'm his friend
its like.. if he's a loner..
me, pple who talks to him are not his friend
so for all the while he sees me as an aquantiance? a stranger?
this is sad you know..

cats class..

you can love me, but i must make me happy
you can teach me, but i must do the learning
you can guild me, but i will have to walk the path
~~you can coach me, but i must win the game~~
you can even promote me but i must be sucessful
you can even pity me, but i will still have to suffer the sorrow..

this is damn meaningful
but some pple says it does not apply to them
wad can i say..

if u think you should change and be a better person,
tell yourself "i must,i will and i CAN change" and not keep telling yourself "this is me and its a fact that i'm this way"
isn't that like giving up already?
unless u're telling me u dun wanna change then ya..
i cannot force u
the choice is yours =]

i'll be there for you(S)* =]

*prural form of you invented on 27 Nov 2005 =]
refers to all my friends =]

combo entry

2005-11-26T22:02:00.000+08:00

alright this is a combo entry

monday(s)..
i joined NP strings recently..
taking up violin
NP strings pple are nice and cool..
violin is not an easy instrument okay pple
bowing is a technique that'll take u some time to master already
imagine the time u'll take to master a simple violin piece..
haha..
i'll wirk hard =]

tuesday..
planning the logistics for games for training till late..
its damn sad
but turned out well the next day
so its all worth it =]

wednesday..
GL training after school
damn fun..
had a taste of being game masters
took my share of 'playing' fellow gls..
everything went well luckily..

thursday..
violin practice that day
another new comer joined me and stamford..
practised on the violin till 8?
yeah..
had a nice but tiring day..

friday..
nth much happened..
tennis lessons were great..
sweat alot, learnt alot..

saturday..
awww...
had to wake up early to go school
well its volenteery work so i guess its okay
had loads of fun after that
went around with the GEEELLLLSss..
haha!
lost my wallet but thanks to ANDREW,
some kind soul who returned the wallet
with the $$ still inside to the info counter..
well of course feli, wei jie, yide, jia hui, pei wen as well
who helped me look for them
GEELLLLss rawks..

sunday (tomorrow)..
waking up for drums lessons at 2..
meeting kelvin and patty to go expo for the comp fair
then going home for lost awaited sleep..
haha..

damned pack
but i love packed life
keeps my mind occupied..
dun anyhow think..

P.S : its okay to say that huiling (horny).. no matter how much they hate me, i know they hate u more than they hate me =]

for rasyidin

2005-11-20T01:17:00.000+08:00

this is specially for rasyidin

this may sounds gay but.. he's damn nice friend..

sec one was my most miserable days in band..
no friends
no one who i can talk to
quitting the band was always on my mind

well then rasyidin came and be my friend
fooled around awhile..
then i got new friends..

i think i neglected him after that

then same class sec 3..
became damn close friends in the begining
then i got new friends and moved to the front..
left him behind..

such a nice friend i am..

rasyidin is a damn nice friend..
he's one good listener..
one good friend who encourages when u really need it
he a really nice friend

BUT HE IS VERY NAUGHTY IN BAND =[

haha!

i miss

2005-11-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

yong ren keep complaining how bad attendance is
well.. sometimes when attendance is no good
its the committee's fault
u think being a leader is being the dominator?
well NO
i dunno but i see everyone being power hungry
well if u wanna get back to business again,
please the commitee cannot be corrupted

its i miss band once again

i just smsed rasyidah
one of my band maties..
scandal in band
she's the crazy one
its worse when she's with hidayah
they'll take dirty and i'll listen
haha..
rasyidah we call her anita
and hidayah's salomah
argh!
i just miss these two chee ko bus

I MISS BAND

how're u ilyani
how're u jun xian

how're u kit mun
how're u liane
how're u lin jean
how're u farah
how're u si ping
how're u hidayah
how're u edna
how're u zi yin

how're u lydia
how're u wiwik
how're u sharifah
how're u hana

how're u simin

how're u hafiz
how're u rasyidah
how're u raenu

how're u jing ying

how're u hafiz
how're u rasyidin

how're u aravine

how're u seniors
how're u miss chee
how're u mrs thomas
how're u mrs geetha
how're u mr tung
how're u mr tay
how're u mr samuel tan
how're u mr tan beng wee
how're u my flute
how're u piccolo
how're u attendance book
how're u band library
how're u baton
how're u conductor stand
how're u tuner

and the list goes on
not only do i miss those pple
but my instruments and stuffs as well
u know how much they mean to me

the reason i go to band in sec one was because i was forced to
the reason i go to band in sec two was because i fell in love with band
the reason i go to band in sec three was because i had friendSSSSSS
the reason i go to band in sec four is because i had PPG and the whole band with me

i totally fell in love with band
i gave up everything for it
I LOVE BAND!

i'm proud to be from NSSSB

sweet moments

life's like eating chocolate assortment

2005-11-13T01:51:00.000+08:00

for me, life is like eating chocolate assortment

its like chocolates in a bag
all mixed together
u put your hand into the bag
not knowing wad u'll get..

life's unpredictable..

sometimes i get milk chocolate
milk chocolate's one of my favourite
and it represents happy momnent..

sometimes i get hazel nit chocolate
its nice only after u're done with chewing the nuts into pieces
its like sweet moments after hard work

sometimes i get bitter chocolate
dun really like them
so they're the worse moments in your life..

sometimes i'm lucky
i got a series of milk chocolate
and i forgot abt there being bitter choco in the bags as well

sometimes lucky lady's not on my side
series of bitter chocos make me lose faith
faith of being able to find my milk chocos in the bag

sometimes when i eat hazelnut chocos
i hurt my tooth when munching
sometimes i just spit them out and give up
sometimes i continue chewing
forgeting to enjoy the choco just wanting to get over and done with it

well now friends
dun u think your life is like eating choco assortment too?

=]

life is good

2005-11-07T00:10:00.001+08:00

went out the whole week
please dun envy me
its due to my cute hot and sexiness
that everyone wanna date me..
pls date me in advance to not be disappointed =]
take a queue number from me =]

woke up early today
11 something.. okays its not too early but..
haha!
went to sim lim to try my luck to get a gateway
but obviously, its not my lucky day
so its a wasted trip i guess

then went down to meet jearliangelch
they were mapling in the lan shop
ver was there too..
after awhile we went back to yishun to eat
delifrance then food court
damn i'm gonna be so fat

next we're off to angel's house
painted my nails
i mean angel and jearl painted my nails..
"THANK YOU SO MUCH"
but it turn out quite cute i must say
haha! its a smiley face
damn gay..
just reached home.. =]

today i'm gonna talk about taxi drivers..
i think taxi drivers nowadays are really..
*****
especially this particular company
not to mention the name to PROTECT myself
i'm fine with silver cab, smrt, city cab and yellow top
but only this particular company
guess u know wad company is that already

y i hate them is because they choose their passengers
there was once i was waiting for a cab at suntec
the queue was damn long, at least 6 meters i must say
i'm not exaggerating
there were alot of * cabs not hired going round the wealth fountain
refusing to pick up any passengers
so i have to wait for like 1 and a half hour before i actually got a cab
they either give excuses like
"i'm changing swift"
then ask u where u're going..
u say yishun they'll tell u they're heading south..
then drive away..
when i finally got my cab, the driver told me
"they're lying only lah"
"they dun wanna pick u up coz they just have to turn few rounds and wait for a passenger to call a cab. in that case they can earn 4 bucks more"
DAMMIT
and i noticed its just this particular company
i used to think they're great but recently
these few damn it drivers just spoilt their company's name..
now i try to avoid * cabs =]
well...
U SHOULD DO IT TOO..

i hope someone will launch a complain
and make this big..
i really hope so.. =]

i worried for my brother..
i hope he meant it when he says he studied..
to any god up there.. please help my brother
and all my friends taking all sorts of exams
be it O's A's PSLE over or not
please bless them with good luck
and able to score with flying colours
please.. and i shall pray to u..

life is good

2005-11-07T00:10:00.000+08:00

math

2005-11-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

friday was damn boring
i mean the classes
morning went to pool booth to help out
few signed up
talked abit with huiting and dephene

my IS classes this sem suck to the core man!
CATS class is taught by a sucky teacher
she's like shoot at basically everything we say
and sees us as ignorant kids
well i'm sure we'll prove her wrong
and guess wad
my class consist of mainly business pple
that's like so not cool
not that business pple is not nice but
its weird studying in a class with pple from other sch
hope i can get used to it..

after that was s&w
damn it
they dun have hip hop
haha!
lucky to be the few to get into tennis

friday was jessica's b'dae
planned to play tricks on her
hah!
told her to meet 1630
but only turned up like 1720
haha! and told her we cancled swensens dinner
but ordered KFC instead
u must look at her face when we announced that to her
haha!
then the beast pple went came in with her b'dae cake
caught her on surprise
smashed a piece of cake on her face with felicia
and she started chasing everyone around
like crazy woman
chased us up and down the road outside sim canteen
damn farnie..
haha!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESS!!
hope u enjoyed your 17th birthday!

after that hurried off to AMK to meet "jearliangelch"
wahaha! okay jearliangelch shall be wad i call them
meet them together with joy and boo-ey
met to sing!
waahah!
kbox damn expensive at night!
it was like 26 bucks in the end!
gosh! damn broke now..

slept till like 12 noon today
woke up, watched swing girls and went back to sleep
sleep until like 8pm then wake up again
today is sleeping day i guess
haha!

now a lil about swing gurls
its damn nice lah
although starting is boring
but yeah
its about this group of gurls who formed a band coz the sch band members got mass diarrhea after eating the food they delivered
so its sorta like make up to them lah
they know nuts about music
they first joined the band coz they wanted to skip their summer vacation make up class
but some of them, 5 of them fell in love with music
they had to play for their sch softball team competition initially
but b4 they could, the main band members recovered
so they left the band, crying
they thought that they could leave band behind and get on with life but were wrong
so they worked hard and got themselves their own instruments
all of them gave up band in the end and used the money to get branded stuffs
only 5 remained and they used the money to get their own instrumnents
2nd hand, damn old and rusty
but they played with passion
and they slowly played damn well
and when those who left saw how well they had became
they came back and formed a brass band
damn asses they were
they manage to get into a band fest
where they get a chance to perform on stage
din get thru the audition but managed to played in the end as a substitute for a band who cannot make it due the the heavy snow
and i tell u
they played damn well

u see
i really got alot of inspiration from this movie
i remembered those good old days
when i'm still in the band
everyone loved each other
it felt so warm
i love NSSSB till today
its given me an experience of a lifetime
i hope to go back to those days
those were the happy days =]

ru hua

2005-11-03T01:39:00.000+08:00

i pity ru hua..
she's so poor thing..
its always her being bullied in the variety shows
she may seem as though she dun mind
but everyone has their own self esteem
i really hope pple will stop bullying her in those variety shows..
at least dun overdo it..

some host for those variety shows just dunno the limit
in fact there is only this particular eye sore
i guess u all know who he is =]
dun wanna mention his name
dun wan him to waste his money coming over to singapore to sue me coz i criticised him on my blog..

i'm weak..

secret post

2005-11-03T01:14:00.000+08:00

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its a secret post.. =]
who i'm talking about no one knows..

life

2005-11-03T01:06:00.000+08:00

okay life's not smooth all the way..
c'mon!

boring today..
before and after sch were better =]

dun expect myself to make the right decision all the time
but i think its not as easy as it seem?

i'm tired..

kaya oreo

2005-11-02T00:02:00.000+08:00

oreo with kaya couldn't suck more..

*pukes

happy.. deepavali? or issit hari raya?

2005-11-01T22:13:00.000+08:00

is today hari raya or deepavali?

today was busy whole day
hah!
i'm hot, sext and cute

woke up late to meet group 2 GLs
was bout 40 mins late..
lucky they're not angry
hah!
discussed abt the game we're gonna play on the 2nd training
hah! u guys are gonna have so much fun!
we've finished discussing
so fast so efficent
y? coz got ME!!
lol.. no lah.. teamwork teamwork
gonna have trail soon but not gonna tell u when! HAH!

tmr's gonna run with stamford and kelvin
haha!
its been so long since i jogged
its gonna be so fun
WAHAH!

i love my life =]

school reopens

2005-11-01T00:31:00.000+08:00

some things before i start..
i know this is stupid
its not that i WANT pple to tag my blog
but please TRY to leave one everytime u visit
just say 'hi' or something
i just wanna know who has read my blog..
and YAY!!
got a new blog skin..
its damn cool dun u think?

yeah as u know
today's the first day of the new sem
hafta wake up like 5 in the morn to get ready for school..
actually its kinda stupid coz i only gotta attend 2hrs math

after class went to get all the notes and text books for the new sem
spent quite a bomb on them
and had to pay 20 buckies for the replacement of my lost NP student card
DAMN

after walking round the school for a while,
me patty dorie and kelvin went to town
had a damn fun time
so crazy lah!
bowling, DDR, para para (dun laugh), drumset
gawd..
and then went walk walk at paragon
bought myself the devil's "spear"
damn idiot lah! HAHA!!
damn nice with peeps like them around =]

halloween today
after we separated, i went to liane's house
supposed to have dinner but haha
was too late
=p
lotsa pple there
so long nv see them le..
chilled till like around 12? then go home

i tell u this sem's gonna be a blast
its only the begining and i'm having so much fun already
no matter wad comes up along the way,
its not gonna bring me down okays?

tell u a lil abt my GL life
got a wife, pandora
got a mistress, huiling
got an employer, daphane
got a gay partner in india, kiap
got a scandal, jessica
got a son (pandora), yide
got a new maid, ron
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY

RON WEIQI WENG HUITING all agreed that...

I'M CUTE HOT AND SEXY!!!

ye ye pao de cha

2005-10-29T15:41:00.000+08:00

ye ye pao de cha
(tea that my grandpa made)
this is a damn nice song..
quite some time already
but it sorta remind me of my secondary school days
where we were still so innocent
this song brings the innocence we had when we were still in secondary school
not that we are very corrupted now but
haha!

i miss those days
running around the class
shouting screaming like nobody's buisness
wonderful days they were
now memories kept in the heart

was out with kelvin yesterday night
supper at the coffee shop
we talked abit
how i wish there will be this day
where all the northlanders gather
and talk about their lives they're living now
yeah

i dunno but i just couldn't help it
but to miss those northland days
its been about a year since i left northland
i really have to thank this school for
all the happy memories
all the moral values i bring along with me when i left the school
all the friends i made

shall we stay friends forever?

its getting sucky

2005-10-26T01:25:00.000+08:00

hey look
ever noticed?

where are those days where we always see each other
where are those days where we ALL were happy together
where are those days where we share all troubles
where are those days where we never quarrelled
where are those happy days?
just where have they disppeared to?

i dunno y it became like that
we dun used to be like that
wad happened?

its kinda sad..

=[

2005-10-26T01:18:00.000+08:00

i'm starting to belive in the maple curse..
wads wrong nowadays??
EVERYTHING SUCK

damn busy

2005-10-20T18:59:00.001+08:00

hey pple..
its been too long since i blogged
too busy these days

er.. this entry is gonna be damn long
first i wanna talk about the movie i watched just now
its damn sad lah
"brotherhood"
its about how 2 brothers got into the army during the korea war
and how they got seperated
but in the end meet in the battle field..
the elder brother gave a promise to go back home to find his younger brother
but died in the battle
damn sad..
its a damn nice movie lah
i cried like 4 times leh
hah!

yupp enough of the movie..
yes now wad i've been busy with
cannot exactly remember the dates but
`class chalet
`drums classes
`swimming with stamfy and patty
`work
`GL trainings
`many many sec sch friends gatherings
`meet cousins
`many many other outings
`mawaii camp (GL)
`shopping that have yet to come
`many outings that have yet to come

dun be jealous with my busy life pple

the class chalet was quite some time ago
had loads of fun
water bombs, pillow fights, overnight majong
not to mention the midnight CHANGI VILLAGE walk
saw loads of uh hum and uh hum
hah!
had a GAY time there =]
feeling more bonded with the class =]

holidays here
so decided to pick up drums
pandora intro-ed me and kelv into it
late for all the lessons
think the teacher hated that
but who cares..
haha!
i love drums!

swam with stamfy and patty for a few times this holiday
hm.. got a lil tanned
yeah..

yeah now i wanna talk abt the mawaii camp i went last few days
i tell u its damn fun
and i'm in XENIA!!
haha!
so crazy
and all the cheers and songs we camp up with
i just love xenia
u know..
from this camp
i really see y the SGLs are so bonded
and slowly began to see who are the losers in GLs
hah!
some might talk big abt themselves
but are actually LOSERS who are pieces of shit
stop tell me or others how good u are
wad big things u have done.. ITS CRAP

now i really respect some of the SGLs
i shall not mention their names
later pple i'm sucking up to them

got myself a boyfriend and a new job
mama-san's only part time
now i'm a india maid..

got damn high with lacy on the way back
hah!
danced, sang and did all those craps up on the bus

this holiday is like damn fun for me
i never regretted joining NP
never regretted joining GLs
never regretted having friends like YOU =]

damn busy

2005-10-20T18:59:00.000+08:00