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/ my life lost its whole meaning.
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Lye Huathuatose/BBGB/papa-san
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28 Jan 1988
Ngee Ann Poly
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Saturday, May 13, 2006
wash my brains.
i slept till like 5 today.my day suck today.
i realise its getting harder to live life as you grow older.
trying so hard to cope with life.
more and more things happening to you at one time.
expecting you to work with so many things at one time.
we're slowly becoming machines as day goes by.
i think my parents, or should i say any other working adults, have became machines already.
machines work all day. no feelings no life no nothing else but work.
look at them.
they dun see friends as important anymore.
maybe its just my parents but..
my parents only look for friends when they need them.
otherwise, they dun contact them at all.
i really wonder how many friends do my parents have?
i never see them meeting up with their friends for tea or wadever.
sometimes, i feel that i'm no different from them.
i dun contact any of my friends.
so i think it wun be long before i become a full fledge machine like my parents.
i've came to conclusion that becoming mature is like evolution.
when a cutesy-bitsy baby slowly growing up into an
you know the baby is maturing.
well i saw something that i'm not suppose to see yesterday.
and i was kinda shocked, sad, guilty all mixed feeling.
well. some things are just not meant to be.
people DO change.
went to liane's place yesterday.
looked through the year book with liane and jearl.
how different we looked.
growing to become machines without even knowing.
mum says i take home as a place where i sleep, get allowance and thats it.
yes i admit that.
but wad else is there to do at home?
you all were never there for me?
why do i have to get home so early?
there wouldn't be anyone for me.
i only feel the sense of belonging when i'm with my friends.
i'm sorry but thats a fact.
at least i can communicate with them.
its not your fault though.
you've got to work for YOURSELF.
stop saying you're working so hard for me.
if i wasn't even born, i'm sure u'll work as hard.
i know u guys love me.
but loving me is not enuff.
pple in school,
you see me being neat and stuffs.
yes i am a neat freak.
but wait till you see my room.
its in a total mess.
y? coz i dun bother.
no one bothers to keep the house clean.
its been like that since young.
i dun feel the sense of belonging.
i did alot of thinking today.
i thought about my life.
i thought about my friends.
seriously, my life is a gonner.
my friends, i dun even know who's true.
i love to sleep.
coz i dun have to face this pathetic life.
i just wanna run away
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